so tonight i re-enter the world of blogging...its been a long time...too long...but I'm back and I pray that I push through and find some consistency.

tonight I haven't been able to fall asleep...something that has been killing me the past week as ive set myself up on a ridiculous sleeping schedule...falling asleep between 3-4 is not something i want to keep up with...unfortunately tonight its biting me in the butt and I'm still up...this will be short as i hope to make another effort at sleep soon.

I was thinking the other day about a song I heard sometime ago...i think this song was on a commercial...maybe not, it was probably on the radio...i think that's what it was...i heard it this past weekend...
It was U2's "In God's Country"...I want to post the lyrics:

Yeah

Desert sky
Dream beneath a desert sky
The rivers run but soon run dry
We need new dreams tonight

Desert rose
Dreamed I saw a desert rose
Dress torn in ribbons and in bows
Like a siren she calls to me

Sleep comes like a drug
In God's Country
Sad eyes, crooked crosses
In God's Country

Set me alight
We'll punch a hole right through the night
Everyday the dreamers die
See what's on the other side

She is liberty
And she comes to rescue me
Hope, faith, her vanity
The greatest gift is gold

Sleep comes like a drug
In God's Country
Sad eyes crooked crosses
In God's Country

Naked flame
She stands with a naked flame
I stand with the sons of Cain
Burned by the fire of love
Burned by the fire of love

Lately U2 has been screaming for my attention. I have a social activist friend who absolutely loves them...we spent a week together at the beach a few weeks ago on Spring Break and so we listened to alot of U2...David pulled apart their lyrics and gave detailed descriptions of when and why the songs were written. It was cool and the band pretty much rocks so I'm starting to get hooked (and on another note they plan on putting out a new cd soon...so rock on my U2 fans!)

The song "In God's Country" is powerful...to me its these types of songs that describe the deteriorating facets of our country that grip me the most. not that I have a great deal of love for my country...in fact i really don't have much love for the U.S. to the A...but these songs that grab my attention are those that paint the painful picture of who we are as people...looking for love...longing for life. It's the lyrics that say, "we are human, we are hurting...we need something more than what we've created"...and then to specify the American spirit..."we Americans have missed the mark and are worse than the rest of the world"...these are the things that I love...though I'm not always sure where the answers lie...I'm sure they are not in humankind and I do believe in this thing we call Love.

To end tonight I pray this simple prayer:

Lord Jesus Christ, son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner.