"he who angers you controls you"

thus read one of the many church signs i drive by all the time...i cant escape church signs...they are a distict part of southern "bible belt" culture and im sure a cultural element for much of the states...

anyways...along the lines of church signs there are ones that make me smile, laugh, think, and then those that anger and frustrate...most of the time however i misread them and think them rediculous...o the joys of being dyslexic...then however there are those that make me squurm (yes, i like the second u...and i couldnt help but spelling it like that)...you know the ones that you just have to say, "hmm...is that right?"...and then you laugh, knowing its just another church sign...

"he who angers you controls you"
--hmmm...is that right?-- i had such a problem with this one as i read it coming home from work about a week ago...i couldnt get around the underlying message in this...the way i read it, is that something that controls you is apparently evil, or if not that, then you are sinning to be controlled by it...
i was really unhappy with this message because i dont believe that being angry is a sin...and thus if someone angers me...heck, he's not making me sin...and heck no, he's not controlling me...

lately ive been debating in my head what is the reality of emotion and connectedness...and what effects us and touches us and changes us...

"as humans...what do we let interact with us intimately?"
this has been the posing question forming over and over and why in the world do we allow such things...are they good for us? to feel certain ways...to be dissapointed...to be sad...to be angry...to absolutely feel lost...to not know for certain what is going on...or what should for that matter...

"feelings...as feelings...emotion...is that sin?"
so as these debates have filled my head...ive really been painfully experiencing emotion lately...and my actions havent always been that great...returning challenges with hurtful retorts...tearing those around me down...keeping them distant...pushing myself from feeling...

"why?"
i feel myself wondering this alot...i fear being known...and knowing for that matter...but here lately, ive felt...and thats been good (more like great)...but my reaction to emotion has not been that of acceptance and endurrance...ive on the other hand rebelled and ran from feeling...i hide from emotion the moment i interract with it...and in those connections of feeling which have been everywhere for me lately...i find myself angry...

"angry or controlled?"